Just prior to Sukkoth (“Feast of Tabernacles”) I returned from a one-month stay in Germany. This visit turned into a major milestone in my life, the benefits of which I will enjoy for a long time to come.

German pro-Israel believers from the Black Forest invited me to speak to them. This particular invitation was a long time “in the making” by the Lord, and it merits telling the story (you can read it in the “Praise Report”¹⁵) to illustrate how He works “all things for the good” in accordance with His purpose.

In 2002, a German believer contacted me for the first time through my dear friend Shira Mayim (the prophetic minstrel and psalmist most of you know). He wished to go to Israel and also visit Beer-Sheva. When I informed him of my upcoming trip to Germany, he offered to find me accommodations.

Now, I always stay at a dear friend’s when visiting my mother (afflicted with Alzheimer’s), and this is what I had planned on doing. However, this time my friend was expecting a long-awaited visit from someone else and my room was taken.

Troubled at this unexpected obstacle, I “chatted” with Shira who mentioned the German believer, and suggested to offer him to stay at our new home during his visit in Beer-Sheva. My husband agreed. 

I wrote the German of my need for another place to stay in Osnabrueck, and invited him and his wife as our first guests in our new home. Thus the Lord not only provided me with another place to stay, but also with new German friends. 

In 2003 my new friend invited me to come and speak to pro-Israel believers in the Black Forest who paid for my plane ticket. The only feasible date was September 2004 (one year precisely since our daughter’s and grandchildren’s Aliyah and my assisting them with their absorption into Israeli society), and when the Lord moved me on again it was to Germany (not the States - the third year without ministry in the U.S.). I informed the Osnabrueck congregation of my coming where I spoke as well.

After returning to the Osnabrueck congregation, I learned that it was connected with the very one I had just visited and, like them, with the “Christian Friends of Israel” as well. “Divine connection” was the stamp on my entire visit

I had seen only obstruction in 2002 when I lacked a place to stay. The Lord, however, used this as a wonderful stepping stone for His purposes for the German saints and me.  What a delightful blessing the Lord had in store!

“I am sending you through the Gate of forgiveness,” the Lord said regarding this invitation. I understood that He could go no further with me until I passed through this “gate” of forgiveness, as unforgiveness is a terrible offense. In light of the cross, what Yeshua endured for our sake and the Father not allowing for any compromise whatsoever, unforgiveness makes a mockery of His sacrifice.

Every time I traveled to Germany to visit my mother, I felt like a caged bird. The Nazi Holocaust still cast its long shadows over me, despite healing I had already received --- through German believers! But now was the time for me to walk in total forgiveness - total forgiveness that would lead to total freedom. This also was the message He provided for these German saints, with me as the living example.

Never could I have imagined the blessings I was to receive, nor the blessing Father primed me to be to these Germans. I’ve never been an eloquent speaker; yet the insights the Lord granted me and the anointing would make up for it. While I shared the Word with these German believers in Altensteig in the Black Forest, G-d’s love kept flowing from me to them. The compassion, love and care I felt for them overwhelmed me, while their love and responsiveness enthralled me beyond description.

Everything the Lord gave me to say hit the mark, from the first to the last meeting. My becoming a living example of this total forgiveness launched me into heights of freedom I’d never known before. Immediately the Scripture came to mind that “for freedom has Messiah set us free!” As I walked through this “gate of forgiveness”, a freedom more glorious than ever imagined was imparted to me by the Lord --- reconciliation with the German people! I believe that only those who have suffered as I have can identify with what this means.

Some 35 years ago, the Lord had appeared to me in a vision of the night and declared, “Now you are free indeed!”¹⁶ And I had felt as light as a feather, freed of all weight [of sin] that so easily impedes us¹⁷. This liberation from the shadows of the past made the Lord’s promise become more real.

As I preached “Total Forgiveness leads to Total Freedom”, my entire life and being was poured out. All understood that this forgiveness was not phony but real, experienced by me and passed on to them. The impact was tremendous!

I dearly wanted to deliver a sequel message - “Who We Truly are in Yeshua” - but time would not permit. However, a door opened, and there was but standing room this time as well despite the short notice. Both messages¹⁸  - among the most powerful the Lord has ever given me - will transform believers’ lives if they are not hearers only but doers of the Word.